The Hills

Walking up the hill tonight 
and you have closed your eyes
I wish I didn't have to make
all those mistakes and be wise
Please try to be patient 
and know that I'm still learning
I'm sorry that you have to see 
the strength inside me burning

Where are you my angel now 
don't you see me crying?
And I know that you can't do it all 
but you can't say I'm not trying
I'm on my knees in front of her 
but she doesn't seem to see me
But all her troubles on her mind
she's looking right through me
And I'm letting myself down 
beside this fire in you
And I wish that you could see 
that half my troubles too

Looking at you sleeping 
I'm sitting here weeping 
while the hours pass so slow
And I know that in the morning 
I'll have to let you go
And you'll be just a woman 
once I used to know
And for these past few days 
someone I don't recognise
This isn't all my fault 
when will you realise

Looking at you leaving, I'm looking for a sign

The End

On a rusty iron throne
In the farthest bounds of space,
I saw Satan sit alone
Old and haggard was his face
For his work was done, and he
Rested in eternity.
Down to him from the sun
Came his Brother and his Friend,
Saying, "Now the work is done,
Enmity is at an end."
And he guided Satan to
Paradises that he knew.
Uriel without a frown,
Gabriel come winging down
Welcoming their ancient peer.
And they seated him beside
One who had been crucifies.

?

Whats so wrong with wanting life?  Why instead of help do we have to fight?  Why must we kill instead of save?  What in our life causes us to never end the killing, the murders, the everything sad?  Is it honorable to take an others life to save someone else?  Are we all not on the same planet with the same goals, goals of happiness and peace, goals of our family being safe and our God being honored?  Whose right is it to say who dies and who lives?  What makes God unable to do so?  Why cant we save without death?

Hero Of War

He said, "Son, 
Have you see the world?
Well, what would you say
If I said that you could?
Just carry this gun and you'll even get paid."
I said, "That sounds pretty good."

Black leather boots
Spit-shined so bright
They cut off my hair but it looked alright
We marched and we sang
We all became friends
As we learned how to fight

A hero of war
Yeah that's what I'll be
And when I come home
They'll be damn proud of me
I'll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it's flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

I kicked in the door
I yelled my commands
The children, they cried
But I got my man
We took him away
A bag over his face
From his family and his friends

They took off his clothes
They pissed in his hands
I told them to stop
But then I joined in
We beat him with guns
And batons not just once
But again and again

A hero of war
Yeah that's what I'll be
And when I come home
They'll be damn proud of me
I'll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it's flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

She walked through bullets and haze
I asked her to stop
I begged her to stay
But she pressed on
So I lifted my gun
And I fired away

And the shells jumped through the smoke
And into the sand
That the blood now had soaked
She collapsed with a flag in her hand
A flag white as snow

A hero of war
Is that what they see
Just medals and scars
So damn proud of me
And I brought home that flag
Now it gathers dust
But it's a flag that I love
It's the only flag I trust

He said, "Son, have you seen the world? Well what would you say, if I said that you could?"

Tears

In my attampt to bring an idea or in perventing something from happening I fear that I have only made it worse.  I tried to change things and people so that things I fear would not come about, but in my conviction and force I have only pushed harder to what I dont want.  I have had the opposite affect of what I wanted to do.  Now what?  Sit back and let people take their course?  How can I do that?  I cant just let things happen when I believe them to be wrong.  I am afraid.  I am so afraid.  I am losing.