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I fail to understand myself. To understand feeling in general. They come from somewhere for some purpose, but this purpose seems to elude me. For the most part I feel inferior to those around me. I cannot do a great many things well. I have yet to see the purpose in my existence. The feeling of inferiority comes from a place that dreams of being the best in all that I do. A lofty goal that could be said as being quite impossible. Even so, the need to be the best is a very strong and pressing need. Not the best in everything because that is frankly impossible and would be a waste of time to try and achieve, but the best in the things that I care about. Passion causes an inferiority complex when others are more fit with that passion. When others are better or more knowledgeable about your passion. When others passion exceeds mine or their ability to use that passion to better themselves, then I grow jealous of that ability. What feelings come for what purpose? What purpose?