Hmmm.

Maybe all I need is Independence.  What I need is to need to take care of myself.  All of my life I have been taken care of.  I have been given what I need.  I have been given what I want.  I think that this has caused weakness.  I have been weakened by my independence on others.  It has taken my drive to achieve my goals.  Why this has happened to me I know not.  I do not know why others can keep their will while I lose mine, but I have and I need to gain it back.  Independence is the only way that I can see to gain back my will and drive.  I am afraid.