Paladin

Defender of faith. Protector. Is this something to strive for. Is this something to become, or will ambition claim us and turn us into something destructively different. I try to do whats right. I do what I can. But I find myself yearning for more. Yearning for a purpose bigger than my next grade, bigger than what happens tomorrow or the next day, bigger than all that has been my life. Is this why I feel stuck? Do others feel this way? I ask myself these questions to judge my sanity. Am I so unique that what I feel what I think is not thought or felt by another? Or am I just blowing smoke and disillusioned into believing that I am more, that I have a vast cavern that has yet to be tapped? I believe I do. I believe we all do. Yet, something is holding us back. Our creatures inside that rip and burn all that we can become. There are few who are all that they can be, and yet even they grow and learn everyday. Where am I stuck? What is holding me back? What demon inside breaks the bond that will cause me to will myself better. To will myself into being a Paladin. A defender of faith. A protector.